Last night I really wanted to write about our weekend, but one kid needed a hair cut, one needed their pioneer costume ironed so it could go back to school, two needed checks written for the senior Boston trip and the Sophomore retreat next week, Little Man had to read, and honestly I was just so tired.
Son #1 came home for a visit this weekend. It was kind of a last minute decision on our part. He will miss Daughter #2's graduation later this month so we wanted him to be here for some part of this celebration. Baccalaureate was yesterday. I'm so glad he could be here. We've missed him horribly. He will finish up at Impact 360, have his commissioning service next week, and head to Colorado to be a wrangler this Summer.
So indulge me for just a few minutes this morning. The laundry needs folded, the house needs to be gotten order, and after this morning's bootcamp, I need a shower! Ha! But I'll get to that in a bit. Sometimes I worry that these days are passing - so full and so busy - that we are missing out in really enjoying them.
But the truth is. . . we ARE enjoying these days. Loving every bit of them. Having all eight kids here this weekend was DIVINE. My heart feels all settled and peaceful with them here. Even if I'm exhausted.
On Thursday, Daughter (#6) and I got back from 9 days in Williamsburg, Washington DC, and Philadelphia. Such an amazing, learning, fun, non-stop trip. It was my third time to go with our girls and Grandmother got to go with us. We had a wonderful time. The troops missed me, but they did just great. It's always good to know that my kids CAN take care of themselves, even though I still really enjoy spoiling them.
I've thought a lot, lately, about some of the most impactful, helpful lessons I've been taught over the years. Things like:
You have either just come through a trial, you are in a trial, or a trial is coming. It's part of the Christian life. (BSF leader, Jodi)
That in spite of my failures, God did NOT make a mistake in giving me these kids OR in giving them ME for their mom. (sister-in-law)
And lately the most helpful has been:
That the fact that we are busy, tired, and constantly stretched beyond what we think we can bear does NOT mean we are doing something wrong.
We are struggling against our own weaknesses, our extremely varying personalities, the constant change and growth that occurs not only in kids, but in us as well, and honestly just the exhaustion of life.
I suppose we could just all stay home and not be involved in activities, sports, friends' lives, church, jobs, and school. But the truth is, my job is to raise these kids up so I can send them out. I want them to be fully equipped - as much as possible - for whatever the Lord calls them to do in their lives. To value learning to work HARD, serve others, and love God. Which means not just keeping them home with us all of the time. Especially as they get older.
Maybe, by God's grace, we are having some success. But we are also failing. Every day. And it's God's grace that sustains us. Our kids are learning to depend on the Lord for themselves. To trust Him. To seek Him.
Lessons I'm still learning, myself.
So if you woke up today, facing trials that seem insurmountable... be reminded today that God's grace in your life not only covers your own weakness, but His glory is actually magnified in your weakness. How amazing is that??
Join me in resting in that truth. Trusting. Breathing it in. And pouring it out to my people. How I love them.