but I hate so many more.
I love that I can get meal ideas, training inspiration for the gym, spiritual inspiration for the soul, and see cute pics of all of my people.
I hate that it makes me feel like I have to do more, be more, and add more things to my ever growing list.
I love that it allows me to keep up with friends from the different decades of life.
I hate that so often if makes me feel like a failure.
I love the beautiful homes and designs and styles.
But...
You don't stay up at night so you can listen to your teens talk? Failure.
You don't go to bed early and get a good solid 8 hours? Failure.
You don't spend quality time with all of your kids every week? Failure.
You don't have a budget and an extensive skin care routine? Failure.
The perfect travel outfit?
The secret to having energy in you 50's?
The most healthy snacks for your kids?
YOU STILL USE BLEACH?
(Just as a side note, never ever tell a former cancer mom who felt responsible to keep her child ALIVE that they can't bleach things. Just don't.)
We see the best of everyone else. And feel the worst of ourselves.
We contrast and compare and come up short.
It's added so much noise to my tendency to overthink things. That noise in my head often ends up winning out over the TRUTH that I know. I don't spend enough time balancing that outside noise with the inside Holy Spirit.
I often find myself longing for those more simple days when I had to make a phone call to a sister-in-law or friend or write on this little ole blog to process things - instead of scrolling through reels to distract myself from the things in life that need to be talked through.
Yeah yeah, I know. I'm just OLD.
I hear you.
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